Thursday, February 4, 2016

Thoughts.

Assalamualaikum.


Hello there lovelies hahaha i dont think there are other people who read this entry. Today is the third of February and going to be fourth in half an hour, yes, time flies sooo fast and i dont even feel it and i think i am going to publish this on the fourth of February cause i am so damn sucks at typing with my very trashy massive thoughts. Okay. Right now i am enjoying my semester break which only has around 25 more days left and i feel bad for this very short break. The result is not out yet and of course i am very very very nervous like i dont even want to think about it, absolutely just freaks me out. If i am not mistaken, it has been around 5 months or maybe more or maybe less, of me being single.



Probably not that kind of interesting fact but yeah, i am actually counting the days sometimes and i dont remember when did i stop. For me, it must be a big deal as we have been in a serious relay, sort of, for about four years and yes it was a freaking long time. For sure there must be people out there that have been in a longer period but this one for me is just really really long. Blergh i just want to stop writing in english i just cannot and i dont know why i like to express my feelings in this freaking not my language ergh im sucks.

Ok, aku ni serabut sebenonye yelah kan sebab lepas break up haritu kena block dengan jantan dok guna tu pastu just now someone added me into a group which was basically a batch group that combines the guys and the girls. Well, it just suddenly wakes me up that i have been in the same school with him and we are in the same batch like cant he just get the fuck out of my life??? Wow, i let out few curses i guessed and maybe some more after this. This whatsapp group is really not the best idea for me, as i dont ever want to be involved with guys especially that bastard and he made me believes that guys nowadays are that heartless, like him. Yes, that is one of the seriously disgusting issues that i am not suppose to think but it sinks very well in my mind.

For your information, i am turning 21 this year, yes i am that young ahaks! This age sometimes pressures me like i should have been having my own money at this age, i should have own a nice car, like every single thing that an adult must think although i am fully supported by both of my parents. Yes, that is my problem!! I dont want to ask them for money anymore!! Like seriously asking them for money do make me feel shit like i am the most useless daughter in the world. As i was going to apply for a loan last year, my mom caught me and of course angrily scolded me that the loan was very unneeded and it involves riba yeah government nowadays is very 'kewl' like that. She said that my dad is stable enough to pay my tuition fees and my hostel, to support my daily life but dont they understand that the fact that i need to ask them for money when i running out of them is very stressful? Fyi, my father is a person that bank in the money when i need, not monthly as he always seems to forget and he can get very busy sometimes. So, when he gives me like a three hundred cash for 5 weeks, with my bus ticket, my club fees, my books, my everything lah, absolutely the amount was not enough. I have been trying to cut out my eating but still, i cannot manage to save a lot as i imagine. I think if i fast everyday and i eat once a day, then i will save a lot. HAHA for sure cannot lah i am a student that always in search of food, a student that cannot live without food whenever the time. A stressful life of a student requires loads of food to destress hihi.

Moving on to the next problem. Do I have that much? Hahaha no lah i dont think i want to let anything out anymore just for now i want people to pray for peace in Malaysia and for a better and fair politics, judgements, everything lah because Malaysia today is Malaysia that people targeted to be bankrupt around Sepetember 2016 and PLEASE PRAY THAT THE BANKRUPTCY WILL NEVER HAPPEN. Thank you for your time reading this useless entry and thank you for the prayers *if you pray lah

BYE! (i told so i will be publising this on the 4th of February)

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